I’m not sure if I love my son or even like him and am considering giving up on him – motherhood wasn’t what I expected
A woman has revealed her struggles with motherhood and admitted that she is considering “giving up” her son for the good.
Now with a two-year-old toddler, the desperate mother said she thought she would “have it together” until now but she feels that she no longer loves her son.
Sharing her thoughts on Mumsnet, the woman explained that she thinks she’ll be a “picture mom”.
But two years on, she’s “far from that” and she’s “not enjoying life right now.”
“I’m starting to even question if I love my son, because surely a mother that loves her children does not feel like this towards them,” she wrote.
“My days feel stressful and rushed. Nothing seems calm and I feel like I’m just not enjoying my life right now.”
She explains that she works four days a week and has almost no time for herself.
What’s more, her son still doesn’t sleep all the time, meaning she can sleep for three, sometimes four hours leaving her struggling all day.
She explained that she “can’t seem to get five minutes” to herself, her son always wants to be with her and if she doesn’t “meet his needs right away” he will go on a rampage. .
But whenever he’s “screaming and crying” after her, she’ll just walk away instead of trying to placate him.
Furthermore, she often resists the urge to “scream back at him” and admits that she’s had her “I just don’t feel like him” days.
The worst part is that she feels her son is only like this with her and not with his father, so she thinks it’s best for her to leave for good and visit him once in a while.
“I’ve given it some thought and think it could be better for both of us if he was to live with his Dad and I leave,” she wrote.
“I think a few times a week spending time with [him] will be better than him having to live with me the way I feel.”
Many mums commented on the post in support of the woman and suggested she seek help for her low mood.
Few suggested discussing it with her son’s dad to see if he can take on more responsibility which might make it easier on her.
“Have you spoken to your dp [dear partner] about how you feel? You work quite long hours and are sleep deprived – no wonder you’re struggling!” one said.
“Why not look at having some time off work initially, it sounds like you’re really suffering from stress, and having time at home may help.”
In another parenting news, this mom said: ‘I let my son play with dolls and hairbrush… the trolls say it’s wrong but they’re just ignorant.’
And this woman admits to being a ‘bad mom’, and says ‘other parents hate me because I let my three-year-old son swear… but that’s always the case. suitable.’
And this mother says having a baby was “the worst mistake of her life” in her heartbreaking confession, admitting that “I hate it”.
Source:thesun.co.uk
